
Posted by Christina Deyo
(Christina Deyo, a producer for The Martha Stewart Show, decided to share her progress on the 30-day Body + Soul Challenge with daily diary entries. Here’s her latest entry:)
I am stressed out. This past week has taken its toll on me like never before. Firstly, my nanny who has been with us for 3 years—and who adores my children received word that she may have to go back to her homeland—Columbia. She has a work Visa and she is paid on the books—she pays a mortgage, car payments, and pays her taxes. Apparently, one of her immigration attorneys didn’t send certain paperwork in on time—so now it’s a waiting game to find out if she can stay or not.
A few days after that news, my daughter Graceann went to a birthday party at a facility in town. The facility leader instructed everyone to play “human” bumper cars where you put a tire around your stomach and bump into other kids with the sole purpose of knocking them down. One of her classmates barreled into her and she tore a ligament—her softball season most likely is over. She’s devastated. Whatever happened to the good ‘ol days when party games involved an egg toss—where the worst that could happen is that you’d have a fried egg on your lawn? Of course I feel tremendous guilt since I arranged for another parent to take her to the party and I wasn’t there.
And lastly I got a call on Friday from my brother who said my dad had passed out and had a low pulse. I rushed to the emergency room—and thankfully he was alert and feeling better. The doctors think it may have been caused by the medication he’s taking.
Now I know things could be a lot worse, and I do believe God gives us as much as we can handle…but my load feels a bit heavy. And when dealing with stress I believe there are two kinds of people—the eaters and non-eaters. Either you feel such stress you end up eating more than you should—or you’re so stressed you forget to eat. Up until getting on the scale I actually thought I turned over a new leaf and became “a non-eater.” In the past, I know I ate when stressed, but this past week I feel like I hardly ate. Then when I got on the scale I noticed I gained two pounds. This is even scarier to me, gaining weight when I feel like I probably lost. If I’m going to gain weight, at least I’d like to enjoy the food and not feel like I had been deprived.
I pray I can turn my world around. My daughter Caroline has her communion next week. There is still that dress I am trying to fit into. My girls prefer me smiling than feeling depressed. So I’m putting on a brave front and sticking with my weight-loss plan. My Body + Soul Challenge feels more challenging today than ever. But I’m not turning back.
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